New Years Eve

Tonight will be my last New Years Eve as a fat guy! That may sound harsh to some but I am very excited to be able to say it. When you have struggled for so long it feels great to know that very soon the outcome will be totally different. No it will not be easy, anyone who thinks the surgery is a magic fix has not been through it or has not investigated it. I look forward to this next year to some what may be strange things to some but here is a list of what I hope/plan to do in 2010. In no particular order and some are just milestones along the way.

To be under 300 pounds
Then be under 250 and then ...
To buy & be able to wear a size 38 pants ( I really hoping 36)
To start running for exercise again & take Eddie
To start biking again & go with my kids
To fit in a booth in a resturant comfortably
I can't wait to go sailing- thanks To Chalena & Dad
I want to go sky diving
To stand next to my brother and hold up a pair of my old pants and see how we both fit in them.
Above all else not to feel embrassed about how I look.

Happy New Year!

Countdown - 1 Week To Go.

Ok, so I made it through Christmas. Did ok- not as good as I should have done. I made sure to eat breakfast everyday but 1. That one was unavoidable. I actually had breakfast all made and was just sitting down to eat it when I got a call from work and the guy who was opening forgot his keys, so I had to run out the door immediately. Christmas was good. I had my last red meat- Tri tip from wood Ranch on Christmas eve to celebrate and Turkey on Christmas. I should do ok this week. I am planning on going out for New Years Eve however- the really last hurray. I start liquids only on Saturday the 2nd. I have not heard from the hospital yet for the pre-patient registration. I will call them on Tuesday if I don't hear from them on Monday. I am a little concerned because my approval says I am only approved for 1 day in the hospital, yet my dr. says I'll be in for two. Another call I have to make this week to get it straight. I also have to make sure i am covered at work for the week I am gone. Hopefully it won't be more than that. well i give you some more updates this week.

2 Weeks

With only 2 weeks before my surgery I am struggling between being good in what I eat and wanting to have the foods I will not have again in a very long time after the surgery or some ever. Obviously there are many things I will be able to have in small amounts later, but things like red meat I can't have for 1 year after surgery, ice cream- i don't think ever, an onion bagel, a soda or a beer. There is nothing i can't do without mind you, but the thought just makes me think. I have chosen to do this surgery for many reasons as I have explained but when I think about would i choose an in and out hamburger or seeing my kids graduate from college or get married or the birth of my grandchildren. The choice is obvious. We start Christmas Camp this week, this will be a test of my ability to stick to the new life style. So much running around, I need to make sure I actually take time to eat and not go all day without eating. That is part of the bad habits that got me where I am. I will let you know how I do. If anyone has any questions about the surgery, my decision or anything related to this topic let me know and I will do Q & A post. Merry Christmas.

I Got A Date!!!

Ok Hayden this ones for you, thanks for the encouragement. January 4th I will be having my surgery!! I am so excited and also nervous. So much to do before hand. I have lost 35 pounds so far, that is before Thanksgiving and the last week. Stress at work, holiday treats and lack of discipline have not been a good combination. I am determined to continue to lose weight before my surgery. There is so much I have to do in preparation. Get vitamins, protein drinks, food journal and other stuff. I am thinking of also going and getting a pair of pants and a shirt in a size I haven't seen in years to keep in my closet as a goal. I think the thing that worries me the most is that they go in and find something wrong and won't be able to do the surgery. A friend of mine asked me since i had lost some weight already had I thought about not having the surgery and just keep trying on my own. I told him if this had been the first time I had been able to lose some weight I might but this isn't the first time I have lost 35 pounds in the short term. Heck I have even lost over 70 pounds one time. It's the long term thats always been an issue. I know i need something that will help me in process. The surgery will be that tool that I need to change my life forever. I am so looking forward to the new year and the continuation of this Adventure To Normal.